I can never win.

I just hate my life right now, i want to succeed in life, but i hate school. I just wish that you could get a good job without a college education. I mean if you want to be a doctor or a someone in the medical field, then yeah you should go to school, but otherwise, no i don't think for simpler fields  you should have to go to school. Most jobs just require common knowledge anyway, so why do you have to pay the state for a piece of paper that may or may not help you in getting a job. The way this economy is it really doesn't matter if you go to school or not because your going struggle regardless.

UGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I hate it when i have to do projects. They stress me out and freeze my brain. I am a bright individual, but when i get pressured i freeze, freak out and forget about what i know. I know it sounds weird but it always does this to me. I guess it is my fear of failing. I am always scared i am doing something wrong.

Once again...

I have got to get more organized, because when it comes down to doing something, i become a nervous,crazy person.It is like i am going to lose my mind, because i always wait till the last minute to do things.It doesn't matter how hard i try to do things on time, i always do it at the last minute.It is like transcribed into my DNA and now i am stuck with it for life.

Hello!!!!

Once again, I hate to complain,but I hate Stupid people. I mean why are there so many. Okay, let me tell you why i am so mad, you might think it is stupid and i might think it is later ,but for right now it is important to me. I was walking in the rain, without a umbrella( that is not what i am complaining about, because that is my fault that i didn't bring one) and i was making my way to the door of the building, when this idiot with an UMBRELLA, decides to block me from the door so they could put their umbrella slowly and finish their conversation on the phone. I was like,"Are you kidding me?, Get out of my way! @#@#@#@#@#!" Also who talks on their cell phone in the Rain???? Are you that stupid? I mean there is a thing called lighting and electricity, which mixed with water could cause electrocution. But that will not stop the Air Heads we have in this country from talking on their phone, because that is all they have in their life since common sense in nonexistent. 

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR......... Why does everyhting have to be so complicated?????

I know that this blog is for my English class, but sometimes it is a way of releasing what i am feeling. I love to write, but sometimes i find myself in a writer's block. It is so frustrating when you have an idea so clear in your head but when it came down to writing it on paper nothing came. It is funny how something so simple can become so complicated. The writer's block thing only happens to me every once in a while, but i eventually talk myself through it and write what i want to say.

Rough Draft

Comparison Paper
October 20, 2009
English 1101

In life we make decisions using both are mind and conscious. Both are a reliable decision maker, but one is more of reality check, while the other is an personal decision. It depends on what the person values most on whether they use their mind or conscious.

The mind, our Brain, probably the most reliable organ we have. Without it we lose our senses entirely. It is the most important to some , but when it comes to making decisions it is our book smart reasoning. We base it on what we know, Not what we feel. When you make a decision in life like whether or not to go to school or just start a job right away, you would use your mind way of thinking if it is just another step in life, but if it is something you have always dreamt about then that is when your conscious comes in.

Your Conscious, it is theoretically there, but not an actual thing, except almost all use it when it comes done to making decisions. If you have an conscious, because some are cold and heartless and only think about their self, and a conscious in not there. Most have one though, and it is their emotional decider. It is the heart over mind motto. If you are making a decision based on emotional attachment then your conscious is your way of thinking, or if you have done something bad, your conscious is what makes your feel bad and to apologize. Conscious way of deciding is only for the young at heart, not the mind thinker.

All in all both ways of reasoning are efficient but one is based on your heart not your brain and when i say"heart" i mean the emotional rapture that is held within yourself. The other is what is the technical way of thinking, like what i said in the beginning, the "reality check". Whether you use one or the other is not of importance, but as long as you are true to yourself the right decision will come to you and the rest will fall in to place.

SO MUCH STUFF TO DO,NOT ENOUGH TIME TO DO IT!

Every time i get caught up with stuff the more seem to come in. There is never enough time in the day.It seems when ever i don't want the time to go by so quickly, it does and when i want it to go by quickly, it doesn't. I guess somebody up "there" has something against me. Oh well it could be worst at least i am still here and as of today my life is pretty good, i just wish i had more time. School takes so much time out of your life. It sucks because you spend thirteen years from kindergarten to high school, then you graduate and then you have to go to college. When does it end!!!I mean i know that you have to get an education, but seriously why do you have to do it all now,it sucks! Most of your good years are wasted in school. At least, hopefully, you'll get a good job out of this, but even that is not certain.

What i thought about the example essay.

I thought that this essay wasn't hard but it wasn't easy either. I thought that it was going to be the easiest i have written, but it was difficult. I didn't know what examples that i was going to use or how i was going to incorporate it in my paper. If i were a new student, i would recommend that you take your time and not put it off, because it gets harder when you are pressured. Then you just freak out and have a total meltdown over something minor.

This is the last time I say this!!!

What i am about to write, has nothing to do with my essay. This is only to make a point, and that is that i don't care what you think about my writings. They are expressed exactly the way that i want them to be expressed, wether or not the persons like what i have to say or not, it doesn't matter to me. My writings are not perfect and are not intended in being looked at as an assignment, they are so much more. They are from the heart and are not meant to be read for correctness. If you only look for errors when your reading what someone has wrote, then you completely missed the entire point. Literature is not meant to be controlled and restricted, but respected and enjoyed.

Example Essay: Love Now?

Love, a four letter word, that is so powerful, yet is not known by most people. It was at one time well known, seen, and expressed, but now it is slowly starting to disappear as the generations pass. Who is to blame? We are.
People say today that they know what love is, but really they just like the idea of it, not the work, sweat or tears. When the going gets rough they run for the nearest exit. As each decade and centuries pass the more we lose the foundations of morals, culture, tradition and of course love. They really mean it when they say that the youth of the future are effected by tommorows actions.If they are not taught the pure essentials of life, how can they pass it on and grow? It is like leaving a plant to plant itself and fend for itself. Sure it makes it self relient, but it will never know the real meaning of love, care, or growth process.
The love depicted in movies and romance novels is not the essence of love. Sex is not love nor is material things, or physical appearence. If that is what your relationship is based on then your realtionship is bound for failure, because beauty fades and so will the amount in your purse. Then all is left is heartache and anger.The real meaning of love is found in a verse in the bible, "...Love is patient, love is kind,...etc", but if that is what love supposed to be then why does what the world thinks is love is really is just GREED, LUST, ANGER, SADNESS, and BLINDED SIGHT, which impairs the individual to see the true meaning of love, because of what they see.
I am not saying that saying that there isn't any love in the world, i am saying that there is a limited supply.A mother and her child, the self sacrifice of one human being for another, the act of forgiviness even though the night before the person stabbed you in the back and the act of kindness, is rarely seen everyday, but is there. The question is will you see it or will you be blinded by the disillusionment of the world and will you strive to carry that love on so that it can be taught, seen, felt and heard? So it can be rembered for future generations and not lost in this crazy, hectic world.
In the end we all have the power to change the world, but do you have the courage and motivation to do so?

What a weekend!!!!

This weekend was probably the worst weekend i have had in a while. It was so boring! All it did was rain, and all i did was work and sleep. I mean what do you do when it is lightning  outside? Usually if you are smart or at least have some common sense you stay inside and since i am a bright individual i stayed inside. I never knew how boring my house was, until i had to stay in there for a long amount of time. So i spent my time watching the most interesting movies i could find and went into an depressive state. I know that there are a lot of  depressing movies, i just didn't know that i owned most of them. I watched so many movies this weekend, that now i don't want to look at my T.V for a while. I hope that you all had a better weekend than me.

I LOVE MUSIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is amazing how much music means to me. It was like i was born with a pair of headset on. If i don't listen to music for a least one minute each day, i will be in the worst mood. It makes me happy and when i am sad it heals me.
Music today is good and everything but i prefer older music, now don't get me wrong i like all kinds of music, but usually i am either listening to oldies or rap/dance music. Two of my favorite artist are Nat "king" Cole and Frank Sinatra. Those two are probably the best singers of all time. It is sad that most people don't know who they are. That is why i think my generation and the future generations are lost when it comes to music. Most just listen to what is NOW playing rather than what WAS playing. Now, that does not mean that i don't like new hits ,there are some good ones out there,but that doesn't mean that i listen to the new stuff all the time, i like variety.If you listen to one song over and over again then it will get old and becomes an old hit on a dusty shelf, but it shouldn't be that way. Music is just seen as a fad but it is so much more than that, it is like a way of life, that is slowly dying. We have to appreciate music before it becomes something insignificant to our society and slowly starts to disappear. Don't let that happen, it is part of who we our.Every human being has some piece of music embedded in them, but it is their choice to listen to it or ignore. So are you going to ignore it or listen to what it has to say?

The greatest challenges of writing my final Draft!

Writing is something i love,but when it is actually graded i freak out. I feel that everything i write is not good enough and i have to rewrite it over and over again. That was what probably was my greatest challenge in writing my final draft for my English 1101 class. Also i really didn't like having to edit my words, because when i do it is not mine anymore more like a manuals perspective. I dealt with it anyway and rewrote what was incorrect to what i thought was correct, but still my words. I know that we had to do that to learn and did help me reword things to be grammatically correct.

I felt like the blogs were helpful. i liked reading other blogs it helps you to not only read them but it also taught you how to interpret them.I don't like being criticized, but the comments helped me see what i did wrong and what i could do better. I did see however, that some comments on other people's blogs, if read in a certain way might have been more negative than helpful. But that is up to that person who is reading the comment . It might have just been me. Overall i think that the blogs helped me to be able to write and express myself better. I have only one suggestion that when commenting on the blogs, i think you should be more helpful than critical. You don't want to make people afraid to write, you just want to help them write better.

Tuesday Morning

I was in a rush already that morning and not in the greatest mood. I did not want to be late for school but it looked like i was going to be. It was finally time for me to make a turn onto my exit. I was trying to move quickly past the other cars, but it seemed like everyone had all the time in the world to go 25 miles per hour. After what seemed like an hour of driving ( only Five minutes have went by), I turned into the first entrance to my Macon State. There was a car in front of me that was making a left turn, obviously that person was late too, but little did they know that they were soon going to slam on breaks. A dozen geese were making their way across the road, blocking that person from going on their way. I watched as the last of them were slowly waddling across the road.I was glad that the person in front of me was patient, they waited until the last geese went across the road then ,they went on their way. I laughed to myself how simple life must be for them, Not a care in the world, just wanting to get to across the road.
It made my day better and i thank those geese for making me realize to slow down and enjoy the little things in life no matter how small they might be.
( The weird thing was, some how i got to class on time with Five minutes to spare.)

The day i stepped into the Garden of Eden

There was three days left on my two week vacation to Italy and Greece. I did not want to get up
that morning at six-thirty, but i told myself that i would probably never get to do this again. We were going on an excursion in Turkey that we picked the day before. It was a tour of Ephesus and the supposed burial spot of the Virgin Mary. I thought that it was just going to be a pile of ruins but i was wrong.
As we walked down the pier, we passed the usually gift shops and restaurants, but it seemed so empty. I know that it was in the morning ,but i have never seen a place so deserted. It was supposed to be a popular coast town, bot if you got a good look at the outskirts of town you would be surprised at what you saw. it was like a dessert and even though it had a coast, the land appeared lifeless and in despair. The bus ride seemed to take forever, but as we were going up the spiraling mountain, appeared what looked like wildlife and vegetation. It was like we were going to a hidden paradise. The bus finally stopped and the doors opened. At first I thought that i was seeing a mirage, but it was really there. If there ever was a place to describe this place it is the Garden of Eden. It was like we were on another plant. I have never seen so many beautiful trees and flowers that seemed immortal. I took a deep breathe and could smell the purity of the air.I knew this was a holy place.
They took us down a cemented path that lead us to a small chapel. Inside lay what appeared to be a stone sculpture that looked like the Virgin Mary. Natural light came through the stained glass windows like a spotlight and it seemed peaceful. I was in shock. How could there be a place like this in a land so barren and restless? I was surprised to see different religious leaders in the chapel. It was like they really felt that she was a holy person and respected her. At that moment everyone in the room had one thing in common and that was respect for a woman that had done so many wonderful things.
Most people would probably overlook a place like this, because of its hidden layout, but i am glad that i got to see it. I will always remember it and the way I felt that day. Through this journey i learned what most people learn when they get older, and that is that things are not always what they seem to be and if you follow down a path unknown you are bound to find something amazing. You just have to take chances to experience the wonderful things in life

What i expect to get out of English 1101

I believe that when you are able to write, you are able to express your entire being on paper or anywhere else that you can write on. I hope that this class can help me to be able to express myself fully and exactly, so that i can get my point across clearly. I have always enjoyed writing my entire life. It is just a way to release any emotion that i have in a more healthier way.
I know that this class is not entirely just writing it is also about reading with comprehension. I hope that i can strengthen this skill while i am in this class and to just enjoy Literature to the fullest extent.